When I grow up one day,I'll go for a backpacking trip around Europe. Perhaps it might be a one year trip but im still not sure how long I want the trip to be yet.It seems that a year isn't long enough to experience all the culture there, but for someone like me who takes great pride in my work, I think I may find it hard to even take a break from my work in future. What so ever the case in future, I promise myself that I WILL go for backpacking. Money and responsibility ain't going to obstruct my dream. Okay,maybe responsibility will hold me back,but definately not money. Unless I was facing some financial crisis....(I hope not!)

There seems to be so much going on about when I grow up but really,who knows what will happen then,perhaps I just hope that I can be same as what I used to be (which is now) or even better (whatever my definition of better is then or now at least). But im still pondering over what ambition I hope to have later in my life, although I did say that I want to be a doctor (somebody in medical field and specialising in one area), but I still cant make up my mind whether it is right to follow this path.Am I going to bring hope or am I just prolonging pain?

Even so,I was also thinking about the path towards law. Although I kept reminding myself that someone like me would not survive in law and justice, I feel helpless about the society's detached and coldness but I really like to do something to change that. Although that probably would be a long and difficult path and I do not want to lose my sense of right and wrong (like what I might be going through during this period of growing up).

So many things I wanna do but yet one cannot have the best of both worlds. Perhaps for now I shall remain dreaming until a miracle might occur and enlighten me on the path I really wanna take. What so ever,maybe the important thing right now is to cope with the 'o' levels first.Im just gonna learn to work hard and play hard.